PURE RANTS (time unknown)

~Nothing actually makes sense.
~Even though i try to understand the
Complexity i fail again and again.
~I don't know how long this empty feeling gonna be with me.
~I know that I'm the reason for everything, i can't blame others for hating me.
~I will never blame others.
~ I am just trying to be myself:)

NIGHT RANTS (before sleep)

~I don't really think I can be myself, i need to suffer just to be myself?? Or what are all these about!?
~Why i going am through this? Lesson by God?
~All of a sudden everything feels burden (or) am I just realising how the feeling "burden" feels?
~They didn't teach me how to feel a feel! Maybe that's my problem!